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Who am I?
I am Phoenix
A stupid name, yes I mean it
Who am I?
I'm a sad sack of shit
but you're better off saying I'm a fucking dick
Who am I?
I'm a fraud
copying lyrics for an unearned applaud
Who am I?
I am garbage
pretending I'm a real artist
Who am I?
I am fat
devouring food like a rat
Who am I?
I am shit
I am shit I am shit I am shit
I am a fucking copycat
and all of my songs sound like ass
how can you listen to this crap?
this isn't real music, this is shit
I can't write a chorus, I can't even rhyme
I can't have thoughts that are truly mine
I can't play guitar well, I can't sound good
I can't sing for shit, I can't entertain
all this loathing is hurting my brain
this isn't fucking punk, so am I a poser?
one thing for certain, I am a loner
people clap at open mics tell me I sound good
but they just do that to not be rude
I know my songs are horrible
I feel it in my bones
it's everywhere I go
It’s everywhere I go
My life's work will never be good enough
and I will always be a stupid fuck
and I know the only reason people think it's decent
is because I'm still
a motherfucking kid
fuck being 16
and fuck my shitty music
sad sack of shit has songs full of shit
a mouth full of shit and a guitar playing it
please stop singing, please stop yelling
you're god awful don't you know it
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2. |
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well I guess that I want to die
but I don't mind living life
I just wish
I wish there was a point
and I pretend singing makes me happy
but I look back and it sounds crappy
I just wish
I wish I could enjoy it
And I wanna talk to people
but I don't think they wanna talk to me
I just wish
I wish I wasn't so shitty
and I hope that you can understand
but you probably don't understand
I just wish
I wish more people liked me
But you have to like yourself
for people to like you
I just wish
I wish it worked another way
But I could change if I want to
I could make myself seem cool
I just wish
I wish I gave a shit
but I wish a lot of things
I wish that I was helping
I wish wishes
really made a difference
but if wishing did anything
then I'd give your phone a ring
and I'd say
everything's gonna be okay
but it's not, no everything is terrible
and I'm saying shit, that you already know
and I am sad and alone
and you are sad and alone
oh fuck, we're all sad and alone
And I really wish I had 3 wishes
and I guess that if wishes were fishes
well then, then I'd still fucking stink
but wishing doesn't mean anything
no nothing really means anything
I just wish
I wish something mattered
if there's no point to anything
then I should probably stop singing
but no, I won't fucking do that
cause I need my sanity intact
cause I'm a sad damn sack
and no, I won't fight back
and I am so fucking scared
and I am scared of being alone
I just wish
I wish things were better
but they'll really never be
no nothing really gets better
I just wish
I wish it didn't get worse
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3. |
I want to be Happy
02:43
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I've been so sad for so long
I don't remember being happy
I've been like this since I can remember
I can't envision away the crappy
can I even get any better
or am I at my capacity
is there any point to self-improvement
if it'll just be worse
will I like who I am if I'm happy
or will it be a curse
is that shit even worth trying
or will I leave in a hearse
And if I was happy
what would people think of me
what would I say to them
who would I be
and if I was happy
how the hell would I sing
how the hell would I write songs
that weren't annoying
cause truth is
I don't wanna write a love song
but I still wanna be in love
and truth is
I use my sadness for fuel
it motivates me to sing
and truth is
I hate all these fucking songs
but if I didn't sing them I'd amount to nothing
and truth is
I'd like to be happy
please let me be
please let me be
please let me be
be happy
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4. |
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Got the person I like on my side
Don't have a bad thought in my mind
and of course, I don't wanna die
cause I enjoy living life
I got friends and stories to tell
I'm so glad my life's not hell
I have no obligations and no schedules
I have no money but I'm not hungry
everything just seems to work out
somehow, somehow
and no one annoys me
including me
I can look into the mirror and say
it's all gonna be okay
oh shit wait
it's already great
AND THEN I WAKE UP
I can't believe that was just a dream
now I face the reality
I can't believe that didn't exist
that makes me all kinds of pissed
and now I gotta go to school
and I don't feel very cool
and oh shit my eyes still hurt
I guess I'm still tired
another fucking day of this
I'm so fucking sick of this
just want some goddamn change
and I'll take anything
just get me away from the mundane
just get me away just get me away
and I wish I was in a coma
cause then I could dream forever
but I should really stop being unrealistic
and try my best to change the future
for the better
it'll be better
I really hope it gets better
but it's already better
than before
Cause I got my best friend living with me
and I hope he likes my family
and I think my songs are becoming less sad
because I think I'm a little less sad
I hope you guys don't mind
some happiness now and then
I'll try to keep it on the down low
cause these songs are still about
the worst parts of my brain
the things I need to let out
and I know they're often horrible
but I'm not just sad
That's just all I have to sing about
and I'm so god damn sorry
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5. |
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all my dreams are down in the gutter
and you'll finally break down
and watch me fucking stutter
all of my words with booze in my breath
little in the heart, and incentive of death
and at this moment I ain't got a friend
not you or him or anyone to lend
their time and care, and love and crap
well let this be my epitaph
and all of you are starting to see
the pathetic shithole they call me
an asshole without friends
an asshole without feelings,
an asshole without money
or much of anything
And I guess I'll try to face the void alone
but all I do is stay at home
playing bullshit, crying rivers
all this complaining gives me shivers
I don't need a better body image
I need a better fucking brain
but let's stop that talking
because it's never fucking happening
cause nothing ever does
in a world that destroys dreams
a world that people fuck you over just to be mean
and I hate you, and I hate me
and I think I might hate everybody
and that's no way to live
I've lost the will to give
and I think I'm slipping, giving up
there's no one to help me up
on my feet, with a smile and a greet
no I don't deserve that, that's not me
I guess this is what I'll forever be
a worthless fuckhead with no belief
Yeah, that's me
just some dude that doesn't like being lonely
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6. |
Fly Song
01:37
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flies run into mirrors, and so does everyone else
chasing things they think are real
happiness is a fairy tail
I don't want to be a downer
but that's all ever seem to be
I don't want to be a loner
but how could anyone really love me
I thought about dying last night
I thought about how hard it would be
I thought about thinking it over
I thought about jumping
I thought about not existing
but I can't do that, cause I think people care
at least enough to listen
to my complaints, roll another joint
cause this is how I cope
I am a fly, trapped inside a lightbulb
the heat's beating down on my back
and I can't take it
but I can't leave because I'm trapped
I'm always trapped
screaming, hurting, suffering, a slow death
and now my wings are burning
and so is my brain
so now all that think of
is an escape
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7. |
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So you wake up and go to work or school
you drink coffee that tastes like piss
and you think you're looking kinda cool
but you don't really give a shit
you make money that your only gonna use
on shit you don't need or that you abuse
you feel lonely and sad every fucking day
and most of the time you don't feel okay
how do you live your life
when you want to die
how do you talk to people
when your first instinct is to cry
how do you write a song
when you're stuck worrying
how do you smoke a bong
when you know you won't win
my mind keeps going to this special place
a place that I do hate
an old man lying in a hospital bed
near friends and family
his thoughts are filled with deep regret
and that old man is me
and I don't know how to change the fact
this'll happen inevitably
I don't wanna waste my life on things like working
cause at the end of the day you still end up hurting
and this shit scares the hell out of me
and I thought about it every night
since the day I turned 9
I don't wanna waste my life
I don't wanna waste my life
I don't wanna waste my life
I don't wanna live my life
in a world that I hate
and I've accepted there's no changing it
so I guess I'll have to change my mind
but that's not happening
so I guess I'll just be miserable
and I guess the whole world will know
or at least the 50ish people that listen to my songs
my music won't go anywhere
and people tell me to cut my hair
and I don't wanna be in debt for the rest of my life
so fuck college, debt collectors, and payment plans
but I know I'll be in debt for the rest of my life
cause I'm a goddamn American
and I know I won't be in control of the rest of my life
cause I'll be working
and I know I'll hate the rest of my life
cause I hate everything
but fuck it, whatever, I don't really care
and I guess I'm happy sometimes,
so I guess I won't die
but that doesn't mean I like my life
whatever man, goodnight
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I hate the world and myself
but I wish I didn't
I hate myself and the world
but I wish I didn't
I hate fucking everything
but I wish I didn't
I hate the world and myself
but I wish I didn't
Why can't reality be different
why do we live like we live
why don't duck monsters
control alien spaceships
I hate the world and myself
but I wish I didn't
Why can't I be decent
I am such a piece of shit
I am not worth any hype
because I fit a stereotype
I hate the world and myself
but I wish I didn't
I hate the world and myself
but I wish I didn't
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Well all the Apostles, they're sitting in swings
Saying, "I'd sell off my Savior for a set of new rings
And some sandals with the style of straps that cling best to the era"
So all of the businessers in their unlimited hell
Where they buy and they sell and they sell
All their trash to each other
But they're sick of it all
And they're bankrupt on selling
And all of the angels, they'd sell off your soul
For a set of new wings and anything gold
They remember the people they loved, their old friends
And I've seen through 'em all
Seen through 'em all
And seen through most everything
All the people you knew were the actors
All the people you knew were the actors
Well, I'll go to college and I'll learn some big words
And I'll talk real loud, goddamn right I'll be heard
You'll remember the guy that said all those big words
He must've learned in college
And it took a long time until I came clean with myself
I came clean out of love with my lover
I still love her, loved her more
When she used to be sober and I was kinder
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10. |
Consumerismo
04:45
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I wanted to buy locally but went to walmart instead
Everyone in there looked like they were dead
I would go elsewhere, not act like a sheep
But their prices are too fucking cheap
I know their stores are ran on the backs of slaves
Making 3rd world countries look more like graves
The workers there are poor as shit
Where a day of work makes you 50 cents
We all watch as those bastards destroy the planet
Poisoning the oceans, fracking mountains for granite
The trees fall fast and grow real slow
They’ll ruin the world, don’t you know?
I can’t believe these monsters are human
They’ll kill us all
They’ll be our fall
No way to stall
But I try to
Raise my fist, curse the government
Of course I’m anti-establishment
Give myself labels, I’m an anarchist
But nothing’s really being done
Even with this song now sung
Money still rules the world
And these forces we fight
Are so damn full of might
That I fear we’ll never be free
To be free, oh to be free
But we go to work almost every day
Eating chemicals, that’s not okay
Hierarchies in the big old city
Live just became pretty shitty
We spend money on shit we don’t need
But we all want more, we’re obsessed with greed
Working all the time just to make the means
You’ll never live your fucking dreams
And your boss gets payed way more than you
Not appreciating all the work you do
They just sit on their ass
It’s your fault for being middle class
You can enjoy life if you can afford not to work
I wish I was rich
Not have to be a bitch
Never sleep in a ditch
But at least I
Raise my fist, curse the government
Of course I’m anti-establishment
Give myself labels, I’m an anarchist
But nothing’s really being done
Even with this song now sung
Money still rules the world
And these forces we fight
Are so damn full of might
That I fear we’ll never be free
To be free, oh to be free
Most the congressmen are in the one percent
It’s an oligarchy, our establishment
You’ll never be the president
For that to happen you gotta be rich
We can’t stop them with protest, riot, or war
It just so happens their guns are bigger than ours
All empires days are numbered, eventually we’ll smash it
But I fear this one’s death will be the planet’s
But that shit really bums me out
This is where I’ll live, this is where I’ll die
But I just really wanna cry cry cry
But I’m disappointed so all I do is sigh
The elite dictate all our fucking lives
There’s only one way to live
Can’t afford to give
Have to be combatative
But at least I
Raise my fist, curse the government
Of course I’m anti-establishment
Give myself labels, I’m an anarchist
But nothing’s really being done
Even with this song now sung
Money still rules the world
And these forces we fight
Are so damn full of might
That I fear we’ll never be free
To be free, oh to be free
But at the end of the day what the fuck can I do?
We’ll never be free, I know this is true
I’ll graduate school, start work at walmart
Lie to myself, say it’s just a start
Wake up early, buy shit I don’t need
I’m making money, I’m repressing my dreams
I’ll end up living a sad shit life
Just waiting for the day I die
And when I do it’ll be so cool
Never again act like a tool
But I’ll be free just like I strived
It’s just too bad I won’t be alive
Oh no
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my heart won't stop pounding
it's beating in my chest
my body won't stop shaking
I'm trembling in my bed
and my brain won't stop thinking
and my mouth won't stop breathing
and my eyes won't stop blinking
and my mind won't stop reading
I want this to stop so fucking bad
I want you to come home and find me dead
I want to show you fuckers
what it means to be sad
I want release from my insanity
I want a bullet in my head
and I've been staring at this bottle
of rubbing alcohol for hours
thinking what would happen
if I downed the whole thing
I wish I had the goddamn courage
to take a fucking swig
and on nights like these
I swear to fuck I'd do it
if I wasn't a huge pussy
and on nights like these
I'm thankful for my towel
for soaking up all my tears and snot
and on nights like these
I write stupid punk songs
cause how else do I let it out
and on nights like these
there's nothing I hate
more than myself
and on nights like these
the only thing I need
is a goddamn reason to breathe
now I hate everything
and I hate everyone
I hate this dying planet
and I hate the fucking sun
I hate the way it shines
I hate the heat it makes
can't you see I'm already hot
and hives take over my skin
and all you fucks can see
the constant worry inside of me
and it's hard to hide that shit
and I feel like an attention seeking dick
when you make your comments
I just wish this would stop
I want it all to stop
I just wish I'd fucking drop
to the ground
and god knows I shouldn't be alive
I know for certain I deserve to die
I haven't contributed to anything
in my miserable fucking life
and what kind of asshole
says he hates himself
but only writes songs
about himself
fuck you Phoenix
you stupid piece of shit
let's better this world one death at a time
as long as you, start with mine
I'll rip the strings outta my guitar
tie them together, not making it far
wrap them around my fucking neck
and soon enough you'll see me dead
And at least I can fucking say
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12. |
I am Dumb
02:37
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I am dumb
I am sad
I am numb
I am mad
But I don’t know if these feelings are just in my head
I don’t know if my subconscious mind wants me dead
It’s really hard to understand the human brain
But I won’t end this now, no, not today
Everything I make is a disappointment
Every word I say is a waste of breath
And we all know that life is pointless
Everything is because of death
But I don’t care
And I don’t mind
I don’t know
Fuck the mind
But I know these emotions are killing me inside
I just wait around as they devour my mind
And I don’t really see a point in going on
I have no hope for what’s to come
But I don’t wanna disappoint the ones I love
I don’t want them to see me die
I don’t want them to come undone
I don’t want them to say goodbye
I’d end it now
But I care
I’d kill myself
But I’m too scared
If you feel sad, if you feel alone
If you feel the way I do, please don’t give up hope
Just do the things that make you happy
Do them until you die
Do the things that you enjoy
And try your best not to cry
Fill your life with things you love
And fuck all the rest
Don't you know It’s all bullshit anyway
So try your best to live another day
And eventually
You might be happy
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13. |
Improvement: The Song
02:22
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I used to want to die so bad
I wanted a bullet in my head
I was sad,
I was so fucking sad
I used to be so fucking mad
I wished that I was dead
I was angry
I was so fucking angry
I used to have an abusive friend
he didn't care about me then
He was dumb
and I really regret it
I used to sing all by myself
share my songs with no one else
they were bad
but I'm still glad I sang them
I used to be so miserable
I dug myself a giant hole
but now,
now I'm getting better
But I know I will
Get through this
I'm improving every day
I'll be okay
I don't really wanna die
it's been way harder to cry
I'm not as sad
I'm not as mad
I made some new friends
don't need the old one
they actually
care about me
so fuck you theory
you using piece of shit
and fuck your
animal abusing parent
I'm done being your bitch
you can neglect someone else
I'm out of my hole
I've found a home
I smile more and more
I smite the floor
and I reach
for the ceiling
I'll live my fucking dreams
I'll be part of the scene
I'll play
more than 2 shows
and I will be who I wanna be
I'll look in the mirror and I will see
a person that I love, a person I respect
a person that I can live with
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